I'm done talking

All day I listen to patients talk about themselves. I honestly want to tell them, "look dude, I don't care." But then I'll just feed their depression and probably kill themselves. But that's the fact, I don't care about anyone. I just want to do my job. This is why I'm a bad nurse. I'll wipe their butts all day and do everything to keep them alive but when I go home, I forget all about them, and when I go back and see they passed away, I shrug my shoulders and attend to my new patients. Everyone here is dying and it's just all for show. I don't want to end up dying as someone who has too much to say. I'm going to keep my mouth close until I can tackle my new reality.